last day of summer

I was supposed to post this yesterday, but I took a bath after writing the post and totally forgot the whole thing....

School starts tomorrow... I'm not sure how to feel about that to be honest. I've been checking the bus schedule, planned my outfit and packed my backpack. I'm extremely nervous, and it's impossible for me to think about anything else. I've tried to read a little, but I couldn't get it out of my mind! Someone got a tips for me about surviving first day of school, cause right now I'm seriously about to shit my pants sometime soon. Not funny. 


I'm like a grenade, mom.

I'm like. Like. I'm like a grenade, Mom.  I'm a grenade and at some point I'm going to blow up and I would like to minimize the casualties, okay?
I'm a grenade, I said again. I just want to stay away from people and read books and think and be with you guys because there is nothing I can do about hurting you;  you're too invested, so just please let me do that, okay? I'm not depressed.  I don't need to get out more. And I can't be a regular teenager, because I'm a grenade.
-Hazel, The Fault in our Stars

This is on of my favourite quotes from all books I've ever read. I can relate to each and every word. I am a grenade. I am a grenade and I can blow up any time. I need days off, I like spending my days off. I like spending time on my own and feel the ticking of the bomb inside of me cause I am a grenade and there is nothing else I can do but to respect it. 

shoe heaven

I really wish I was rich so I could go shoe shopping everyday... I love TOMS, they are so comfortable and oxfords are just the most adorable shoes ever. But I think my number one on my shoe wish list right now would be a pair of floral printed dr. Martens, omg, they are so cute! 


beautyflowr07 - this is me

long time, no see

It has been a while now since I've written something on here, but I don't know, I just kind of miss it. Blogging I mean. I like writing and now that I've started my own YouTube channel to, why not just try to start writing again and see what happens? Okey, cool..

School is starting soon. I dropped out of school in february last year cause of personal reasons, so I'm really nervous. I'm starting on a whole new school in a class under me and I don't know anybody except from people who.. well, I haven't even started in school and I already got a nick name. I think that says a lot. But I think that the worst thing is the fact that I'm actually gonna start on a public school... I have been in private schools the past four years and I am freaking terrified.